Hey, I'm sick of everything. These months are the worst time for me. I fell apart on APRIL. my heart was missing since the day I knew that betrayal was around me and now I still don't know how to forget it. I try to face everything, I try to forgive, I don't wanna miss my sixteen life cause of sadness and a brokenheart, But it happens and I can't deny that i'm so stressed. it feels like I'm lost in my world and I can't find the way to go out. Everyday I go to school , smiling , laughing, giggling like there's no pressure on me. That's insane.
when I try sleeping and dreaming bout something good, what I get is just regretness, thought that I was so stupid, I lost my boy and I can't do anything. the boy that I've trusted for so long, knowing all my secrets the one that I can tell everything to but in other side he left me with no honour like I was a trash. It still feels painful cause he PLAYS twice with me and I still trust him in the second time. I'm a fool and I don't know it untill everything happens. I don't get any explanation. I just think "why, why, why?". people don't know how it feels, what I've been through with this f-in kind boy .Only both of us knows, maybe. and when I think that I've forgotten him, the dawn has come.I almost do this everyday especially weekend. I never did forget, He still haunts me and I can't do anything except being stronger, just focusing on my study here, in the Best School I could ever have. this is just tiring, I'm sick, just hope that Jesus shows me this is the way for now not forever but for now. I'm wondering how stupid this girl, get dumped, and I don't deserve happiness cause everything is my fault. I'm tired :(
