DAMN TIRED

Hey, I'm sick of everything. These months are the worst time for me. I  fell apart on APRIL. my heart was missing since the day I knew that betrayal was around me and now I still don't know how to forget it. I try to face everything, I try to forgive, I don't wanna miss my sixteen life cause of sadness and a brokenheart, But it happens and I can't deny that i'm so stressed. it feels like I'm lost in my world and I can't find the way to go out. Everyday I go to school , smiling , laughing, giggling like there's no pressure on me. That's insane.
when I try sleeping and dreaming bout something good, what I get is just regretness, thought that I was so stupid, I lost my boy and I can't do anything. the boy that I've trusted for so long, knowing all my secrets the one that I can tell everything to but in other side he left me with no honour like I was a trash. It still feels painful cause he PLAYS twice with me  and I still trust him in the second time. I'm a fool and I don't know it untill everything happens. I don't get any explanation. I just think "why, why, why?". people don't know how it feels, what I've been through with this f-in kind boy .Only both of us knows, maybe. and when I think that I've forgotten him, the dawn has come.I almost do this everyday especially weekend. I never did forget, He still haunts me and I can't do anything except being stronger, just focusing on my study here, in the Best School I could ever have. this is just tiring, I'm sick, just hope that Jesus shows me this is the way for now not forever but for now. I'm wondering how stupid this girl, get dumped, and I don't deserve happiness cause everything is my fault. I'm tired :(

GLUCKLICH is my second FAM *awesome*

 OMG bener2 lucky punya bff ky mrk :):) you know belakangan kita pegi bareng gila-gila an..mulai dari trawas, batu, BBQ, and many more! GUYS ohmylanta I just love 'em smooch! GLUCKLICH means happy =haengbokhae =senang! = tresno =seronok! wkwkwkwk. number 1 is me,number 2 is my lovely ATOM! our voices are awesome absolutely b) style banyak HA HA HA in many vers wkwkwk, number 3 !! bank kitaa natasha marissa lol, satu2nya member yg school-ing d singapore..so we spent many times! cause TM-alias tacik singapore-alias tasha- bakal jarang di INDONESIA! huhuhu, number 4 ada....DEBRA! yg paling cheerful dah! slalu tidur *mata sipit sih* ,and baik banget! :), number 5 ada Denise Tedja basketball player , number 6 *sopo yo* elsa monica wtattattataa,number 7 ikii paleng mayak, mukake jrawaten,kluarga theodoroes,sukomanunggalers, dan nama lainnya chilkid wkawkawka Playmaker juga rekk, nahh iki number 8 antonius billy cocoatanee rekkk gg nahan kudu ngaplok *DARRR* "wes ganteng a?" ..ad lg1 member namanya JENNIFER NOVELIA #9 ,, ini yg paling mellow! paling ,mature, paling enak dikerjain benernya :p.

...mata kita smua kadang bureng-bureng bajingan gt deh kalo senyum jg measam mesem mesum! ROTFL...I wish our friendship can't be broken forever! for friendship..I believe that "forever" is a good word :)....I LOVE GLUCKLICH (20-12-10) :DD

-sesuai semboyan "kalo makan kagak ada friendship2an, siapa cepet dia dapet" sooo otomatis hobby kita MAKANNNN lol-

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LIFE IS SHORT



happy to share many things here :) this morning I went to church..then the homily was so good but it got me to the BORING WORLD  totally!! == kotbahe nakutno tapi ><" ttg akir jaman cak..so PRETTY SCARED!!  (x_X)... dan saya senang krn makan APENG!! xd xd xd!!... dan kabar baiknya THERE's NO HOMEWORK FOR TOMORROW!!! :D:D...  next week bakal have fun ama temen" k TRAWAS *SMOGA JADI o:) o:)    huaaaa betapa senengnya dunia ini gg pengen aku tinggalin cepet2 ...hanya merasa bahwa hidup ini PENDEK POL :(:(    If I die tomorrow?? yapa yoh wkakakaka... just quiet AFRAID...really TT ..it's like the end of the world..Tomorrow is the day :|:|... CAN'T STOP THINKING BOUT SOMETHING Oh JESUS just gimmie a chance to breath everyday.. CAUSE NOW!! I need it so much :)...   moga2 smua itu salah dan aku masih bisa bernafas selama mungkin TUHAN ...    dibilang capek idup si lumayanTAPI mati juga gamau :|:|..

OH STUPID ME

COME ON MONICA :):) ...idup itu berharga..cuma mau berbuat baik skg..krn saat itu bisa dtg kapan aja k aku OMG TT.. blajar yg lain.. lupain smua yg buruk2..GAMAU CARI MUSUH!

AKU MAU BESOK HASILNYA BAGUS!...really" PRAY :):)

SHOCKING DAY (n)

REALLY2 A PERFECT DAY

X_x

enak2 masuk klas 9a...pagi sampe siang kagak ad ribut2..asik lah pokoknya di klas hari ini..walaupun td kelompok BI gw ama si FREAKIN' BOLDY no matter lah..toh ttp aja otakku yg smart :p bisa membuat nilai jd bagus wkwkwk..PKN seru bener dah!(y) gw bener2 seneng nih otak akirnya guna juga buat ngelawan klompoknya sii *peep*..JUJUR YEEEE :p ni gmw nanya benernya tp karenaa gaya ngomng yg GG BENER?! mungkin? loe punya proyek ditanyain org ngomongnya mungkin? OMG!!><  awesome lu langsung ancur BAMM!!bangg<< gg mksut ejek :p..sorry yee TEMAN BAIKKU :*pulang2 enak kagak ad PR whoo lg seru2nya ni ngeBLOG..eh tiba2 mah ribut bener ya ni blog...gw liat log temen gw..DASYAT! bener2 nusuk! :|:|..thu masalah ampek segitunya ya emg... HELOO??? ngamuk lgsung napa depan org nya..kayaknya lebih seru thu :D..soo drpd malu"in ni kasus di BLOG..ntar ktw an si Om KUS... 9a in a BIG PROBLEM!!...bolak balek jugaa!!! ttg penggunaan teknologi! zz..siapapun yg salah ato bener..ak gtw tp mestinya nih yaaa...

STAY COOL ACHJA :p

I hope this problem gonna be ended soon! :)

sebeneree yaaa ak ya rada gg trima ama kata2 si peep yg begitu menusuk lubuk hati ku yg paleng dalam..

tp..WARAS? ngalah sajoo ...

sorry nih sbg koordinator loma ketertiban

I couldn't solve the problem x_x

dan mencegah pelanggaran teknologi ini

lol

soo wee will see tomorrow ajahh :)

yayayayayayaaa hello this is my first POST! after introducing ma self

and I'm so mad mad mad with my friend and he's so annoying *SUERR*

can you imagine that you have a tottaly crazy friend?? and don't have any attitude and don't know How's tha way to threat a girl!? hello mass maaf saya bukan cowooo ==

HIS NAME is *peep*...SEORANG ANAK YG BENCI ORTUNYA..omg!!!! ><"

benere seh ak simpati ma ni anak..tp kok gg bisa diajak becanda dikit yahh zz

bener2 tingkah premann!!! this is the story:

HE IS PRETTY DAMN PARENTS HATERS

hello?? masak dia benci ama nama blakang nya dia sih?? PDAHAL THU NAMA KEREN KOK

1.gg bersifat ngutuk

2.pemberian mama papa

3.gg buat dia malu kann?

KECUALIIIII namanya SUkiyem..Sutarjo...Susumu or anyelse..

1 kelas seneng bener nggoda" ni anakk dngan manggil *forbidden word* ituuu

..

bener2 gilaaaa!!!! come on it's only a name that actually it's a good name DUDE!!! nyantee aa zz
MEMANG!!! aku akuin aku jg salah sihh nyebut2..tp yg nyebut gg cuma aku lagi!!! tp cewk kayanya yg DIJITAK *GG PUNYA PERASAAN LU VIN! (kevin lo yo)* ketika aku sebut aku jg gg sengaja kaleeeeeeeeee...AND THE RESULT WASSSSSS....BANG! BANG! CTASS2!!!...dee njitak akuuu buanterrr OMG! sampe mataku gg isa mbukaaaa serasa habis kejatuhan POT *==..sooo
akibatnya!
1.gg piroo konsen fisika lesson
2.PUSENG e POLL
3.SO SO ANGERR :@
4.dan dia gg minta maaf.. *WHAT A GOOD BOY??* hahahahahah SLAMET YOO ==
blum brenti ni nguing nguing kepallaaa...krn ketauan kidding in nama  ituu di TWITTER...AKU DIKUEJARRRR spnjg lorong 9 grade..and BAMM!!! rambutku dijambakk...jari tangan ku dipluntir.. SO STUPID YOU FUCK! (n)
KALO NI JARI PATAH GMN BROO??????? HELLOO it's a KIDDING!!! kecuali ak ngo km ank durhaka gg syang ortu just go to hell..cause I know when you die JESUS won't meet you and throw you to the fire hole *HELL*
kalo tanganku patah piye jeng!? najise ganti tanganmuu sg wes kotor with MANY SINS cause of alll the injury that you've given to many people....SUCKS lah yooooooo..

Last but not least for you my friend in the deep of my heart aku w maafno kok

maaf jg kalo sring ngerjain km! BUT cuman mw buat km sadar aja..mungkin kan?? lewat teman"mu yg baik dan SAYANG MAMA PAPA inii km bisa sadar dan sayangi keluargamu..

soo JOKK ALAYY!! kene wedok duduk cowo BLOK..jok perna jitak2 aku meneh lek gg tak patahno IDUNGMU ...

lek km kesinggung jok salahno aku... blog blogku kok

DAN PASTI INI JUGA ISI HATI ANK2 yg dikit bingung ama sikapmu vin (KEVIN lo yoo)..

ak yakin km sayang *FAMILY* muu...

SO..fighting ya buat hapus smua dosa

APALAGI AMA AKU AMA TASAH AMA AMING dkk



Newblogger!

hello my name is absolutely Monica Joanna :) 14 y.o. simple,love to laugh cause there's no a big deal in my daily life .A member of SEMBILAN A JAGO sanmar! :) really2 proud of my class..this class is awesome..we have a good teamwork in everything include "cheating" awkawkawka.
 I'm tottaly VIP guys! a big fan of BIGBANG korean boyband..my truly handsome idol Choi Seung Hyeon a.k.a T.O.P you know? the big boyy! awesome..his beatboxing is pretty damn cool! he also has a great.charming face..huaaa :)
that's a little part of myself..hope you can enjoy to read my blog

감사 :D